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It is late, Jyn. What can I help you with?

[His voice sounds slightly sleepy, but otherwise cognizant. He realizes it must be an emergency if he is called this late.]

I’m sorry. [She blurts it out, realizing how late it is.]

I can’t sleep. [She sighs low.]

I suppose this was my first time dealing with what this place does. I don’t think I’m handling it well. You can go back to sleep though. I can talk to you in the morning. Or when you’re free.

Nonsense, I am awake now.

[There is a faint rustling, as Hannibal sits up.]

What is troubling you, my dear? What has happened?

I’ve had secret aphrodisiacs put around me in some facet— at least twice now. I was at that mirror land, fighting nightmares and a submissive. I was very lucky I found a friend there or I know it could have been so much worse.

—and then what we had to do to come back. [She isn’t adverse to violence, but it wasn’t something she did because she enjoyed it.]

And then I have been trying to find places to work, find about more about this place, and I stumbled upon some magic tradition. I wasn’t in control of myself, and I did things I’m not entirely proud of. [And that she enjoyed. They also happened to be sexual.]

I’ve never not been a night person. You don’t always get to trust where you’re lying your head at night where I’m from— but it’s worse here.

So you are not feeling safe right now, from the loss of control. [Hannibal murmured, half to himself. He leaned back against the headboard, his dark gaze straight ahead.]

It sounds like you need a guide, and a safe group of people that you can go for intimate gestures.

I'm used to not feeling safe. [It comes out harder than she means, but it's the reality of what it has been like for her.]

I am not used to the forced intimacy.

Ah ... has anyone taken advantage of you, or was it simply the situation that you found yourself in? I myself, have ended up having compulsory sex with partners I had not considered before. However, consent is still important.

[A slight pause.] Was it only physical?

No-- no, I don't mean it got that far. It just seems this place makes you want it, regardless if you would under other circumstances.

[Which would be clear and complete consent.]

Physical, yes. It wasn't-- it wasn't bad. I had met him before at least. He was kind. I just... [She takes a breath.]

I guess there are things here we must do to survive.

Jyn.

[Here, Hannibal's voice takes on a note of seriousness.]

They will not kill you, if you do not have sexual intercourse. You may be imprisoned -- they may try to brainwash you, but at no point will you be killed or harmed. I want you to remember that. Sexual intercourse is not how one survives here.

How you survive, is learn how to play their game ... and win. Sometimes, that requires cheating.

I know that. It's just the aphrodisiacs make those choices harder. How do you know what you feel is real?

[And suddenly the heart of everything actually comes out.]

I feel like I'm still learning the rules.

I like to do the twenty-four hour waiting period, to see how I am after a day.

[Hmmmm.]

What rules are you being baffled by?

It isn’t that I’m baffled. I understand rules. It’s more the lack of— autonomy and coping with it. I like to be the one in control.

Ah-hah. Well, then you must find coping mechanisms. Ways to give yourself control, even though you will find yourself in circumstances where you may lack it. I myself, like to twist their games against them. Hurt some part of their organization while under their spell -- and they think twice of doing it again.

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